And a man came to him, he who was bent over, head to the ground; hands spread out before himself and said to this man "You can start over!".......
Have you ever wanted that, an opportunity to start over? Well this man did. He in that moment was looking back upon his life and crying out to God only knows who and wondering why everything was wrong. How did everything get so out of whack. All his life he tried to do things right. Even when he was doing wrong he had within himself a desire to do right. He planned and prepared but all the while was held in invisible bondage to things far beyond his own understanding. His life a mess, he did the only sensible thing any man would do; RUN. But not run from his problems, no; he ran towards the solution.
This man found what was truly worth it all. Worth his time, energy, money, and life. Yet as the years went by the solution lost its appeal. He began to get bogged down with responsibility and overwhelmed by loneliness. He wanted out, he was at his tipping point. It was time for another change.
But what was the change, what needed to happen. Was it a physical change? Or something deeper? The only way to know would be to get into the wilderness of self. Instead of covering things up that are locked deep inside. It became time for this man to dig down deep. Find out what makes him tick and than add nutrients to the true giver of life. So that he could grow and begin to stand strong.
The man I speak of is myself of course; I am at a point where things are beginning to be blurred. I have been relying to long upon my practical abilities. There is so much more to me than even I know. I cant seem to move forward though. I know Its because I have not fully released myself to the change that has been given to me 3 years ago. A change brought on by the one true God. Who picked me up out of my filth, cleaned me out, dusted me off and set me on a course that I could not travel alone. Yet as the years have gone by, I have noticed that I have put up a wall between myself and God. I have not fully given my all. I still think that I have to make things happen. I am not content without being in control. Because when in control at least I can be prepared......
Please hear this, I am not exasperated, no; I am searching. I am not defeated, no; I am on a journey. Change is on the horizon. My heart is telling me that God is highlighting something deep in me that is hindering me. Take for example a cup. If you break it, It can not retain liquid with only the big pieces put back together. Sometimes the most important piece is that little one; that small piece that seems insignificant yet without it, your cup will leak out and remain broken.
......That man looked up at the one standing over him, he looked deep into the other mans eyes and could feel peace begin to form in his own heart. The man standing holding his gaze said with resolve in his voice "Come, and stand by me!"
Have you ever wanted that, an opportunity to start over? Well this man did. He in that moment was looking back upon his life and crying out to God only knows who and wondering why everything was wrong. How did everything get so out of whack. All his life he tried to do things right. Even when he was doing wrong he had within himself a desire to do right. He planned and prepared but all the while was held in invisible bondage to things far beyond his own understanding. His life a mess, he did the only sensible thing any man would do; RUN. But not run from his problems, no; he ran towards the solution.
This man found what was truly worth it all. Worth his time, energy, money, and life. Yet as the years went by the solution lost its appeal. He began to get bogged down with responsibility and overwhelmed by loneliness. He wanted out, he was at his tipping point. It was time for another change.
But what was the change, what needed to happen. Was it a physical change? Or something deeper? The only way to know would be to get into the wilderness of self. Instead of covering things up that are locked deep inside. It became time for this man to dig down deep. Find out what makes him tick and than add nutrients to the true giver of life. So that he could grow and begin to stand strong.
The man I speak of is myself of course; I am at a point where things are beginning to be blurred. I have been relying to long upon my practical abilities. There is so much more to me than even I know. I cant seem to move forward though. I know Its because I have not fully released myself to the change that has been given to me 3 years ago. A change brought on by the one true God. Who picked me up out of my filth, cleaned me out, dusted me off and set me on a course that I could not travel alone. Yet as the years have gone by, I have noticed that I have put up a wall between myself and God. I have not fully given my all. I still think that I have to make things happen. I am not content without being in control. Because when in control at least I can be prepared......
Please hear this, I am not exasperated, no; I am searching. I am not defeated, no; I am on a journey. Change is on the horizon. My heart is telling me that God is highlighting something deep in me that is hindering me. Take for example a cup. If you break it, It can not retain liquid with only the big pieces put back together. Sometimes the most important piece is that little one; that small piece that seems insignificant yet without it, your cup will leak out and remain broken.
......That man looked up at the one standing over him, he looked deep into the other mans eyes and could feel peace begin to form in his own heart. The man standing holding his gaze said with resolve in his voice "Come, and stand by me!"