My entire life I grew up with a fear of doing it. I always told myself I couldn't and would never try. So in Oman when all the other guys were doing back flips and crazy rotations something welled up inside of me. I knew that I wanted to do it too.
I couldn't though. My mind had for years built up an understanding that I couldn't do it so my body wouldn't do it. I back flopped in to the pool at least a hundred times in a row. I was ready to give up. I was tired. Distraught. Irritated. I couldn't get it.
Than along came my good friend to help me out. Olympic Diver back in the late 80's early 90's. Dive coach to an Oman dive team and a worker for the kingdom. I have left his name out to protect his identity!
HE taught me step by step how to do a proper back flip. Helped me to overcome the fear of flipping backwards.
By the end of my Outreach I was able to do a couple of new tricks including the backflip!
I share that story to open up the floor to explain what I feel I am to do next. I have done DTS, and have staffed one as well. Those have been truly amazing experiences that I would not change for the world. As it stands though, because of all that has happened over the last year I can see that I need guidance. So this might sound crazy but here is my plan for next year. I am going to stay in Kona. I will be serving the YWAM base here by becoming a building manager. Thats not all though, I want mentorship. I have gifts and abilities and character traits that are very under developed. I want to grow and mature in my faith and walk with God. So I have sought a couple different leaders here on base to take me under their wings to teach me what it means to be a man. To serve God with my whole heart, and to be a leader.
I can't do it alone though. I hope that you can see the change in my life and will continue to pray for me and support me financially. I need all the help I can get.